Konfessions: Loner

Have I been a loner all along?

Why does being a loner feel so good? Am I going through a phase in life? Dining alone and watching people soothes me. Am I the only one who enjoys dining alone? Is this depressive? I’m not sad. Maybe I’m just tired of wearing a mask around people 24/7. Is this truly introversion or is the devil trying to isolate me? Enjoying a quiet evening alone with my thoughts in a bathtub full of bubbles with wine in hand is goals, right? Having circles of friends and loved ones that I adore, but not wanting to be bothered. Is that healthy? In a world where everything is so loud, peace and quiet is welcomed. My son is a lot like me. Am I affecting him negatively? I was sheltered as a kid. Would I have been this way if I wasn’t sheltered? Are you born a loner? Should I work on being a better person? Am I now embracing a part of me that I thought was weird?

Who knows…

What I do know is (as I sit smiling alone at a table in Panera Bread)…

I’m happy at this moment in time.

I feel good…

Everything is Temporary, Nothing is Permanent

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Everything in life is temporary. So if things are going good, enjoy it, because it wont last forever. And if things are going bad, don’t worry. It cant last forever either.